Hope Returns
December 1, New Moon.
Hope, Laughter and Strength are beginning to ease back into our days here at the Bakery Loft.
After three hard days in the hospital, Chester returned home on Thanksgiving. The three days in the hospital bed left him quite stiff and with weakened capacity in his right leg, making transfers and walking more difficult (and more dangerous). The psychological impact of the hospital stay (and the open head surgery, and the general anesthesia. . . ) had fostered a degree of confusion and sadness that lingered for several days. The IV bag was a new detail to be mindful of, making movement and sleeping all the more precarious. Hard times for Chester.
This past week has been one of recuperation and regenerating strength, flexibility, trust and confidence. Allowing the hurt and frustration in was a part of this, and Chester shared with all of us (including his rehab therapists and several guests) what he was experiencing. Fatiguing quickly, shaky transfers, heightened apraxia and other "setbacks" were all simply part of our days. Each day, his strength and stamina are slowly increasing. Each day, we seem to find more joy amongst the challenges. Yesterday we tore into wonderful laughter at the idea of Chester bouncing around on the airbed that is in the guest room. Chester said, and Jaime and I agreed, that it "feels SO good to laugh again!".
Hope was in short supply last week. She has started to return. Prudence continues to be busy, dictating extra caution and vigilance. Prudence has been busy these past few months.
Tomorrow Chester gets his next MRI (rescheduled from last week), which will provide us with valuable information. You all will be informed of the results when we get them (most likely the following week). His days continue to be full of therapy appointments, doctor visits, and all around continued rehabilitation. Each day is a dance of presence and interdependance, as I and other friends assist him when needed, and stand back and witness as he continues to be fiercely resourceful. There are so many factors at play (post-chemo and radiation fuzz, post-surgery, post-anesthesia, post-hospital, antibiotic, tapering steroids, etc, etc) that it is hard to discern what is effecting what. All we can do is take a whole-minded approach and meet each task as it comes. We persist in choosing consciousness and in "taking it easy".
Right now, Chester is working with his Physical Therapist, walking laps around the kitchen table. It is raining outside, and he is getting ready to take a walk outside under the awning. Tonight, we are celebrating another Thanksgiving with Marilyn, eating raw fish and honoring the New Moon, celebrating friendship, comfort, and love.
We continue on. May this new moon in Sagitarius bring optimism, profundity, and introspection to all of us. May our inner light and wisdom brighten this dark month. May we find wisdom and pleasure in our darkest places. May we know and embrace our animal nature, welcoming the season of rebirth and regeneration. May Love and Laughter flood into our days, bringing Hopefulness and Heartfulness to Us All.
Hope, Laughter and Strength are beginning to ease back into our days here at the Bakery Loft.
After three hard days in the hospital, Chester returned home on Thanksgiving. The three days in the hospital bed left him quite stiff and with weakened capacity in his right leg, making transfers and walking more difficult (and more dangerous). The psychological impact of the hospital stay (and the open head surgery, and the general anesthesia. . . ) had fostered a degree of confusion and sadness that lingered for several days. The IV bag was a new detail to be mindful of, making movement and sleeping all the more precarious. Hard times for Chester.
This past week has been one of recuperation and regenerating strength, flexibility, trust and confidence. Allowing the hurt and frustration in was a part of this, and Chester shared with all of us (including his rehab therapists and several guests) what he was experiencing. Fatiguing quickly, shaky transfers, heightened apraxia and other "setbacks" were all simply part of our days. Each day, his strength and stamina are slowly increasing. Each day, we seem to find more joy amongst the challenges. Yesterday we tore into wonderful laughter at the idea of Chester bouncing around on the airbed that is in the guest room. Chester said, and Jaime and I agreed, that it "feels SO good to laugh again!".
Hope was in short supply last week. She has started to return. Prudence continues to be busy, dictating extra caution and vigilance. Prudence has been busy these past few months.
Tomorrow Chester gets his next MRI (rescheduled from last week), which will provide us with valuable information. You all will be informed of the results when we get them (most likely the following week). His days continue to be full of therapy appointments, doctor visits, and all around continued rehabilitation. Each day is a dance of presence and interdependance, as I and other friends assist him when needed, and stand back and witness as he continues to be fiercely resourceful. There are so many factors at play (post-chemo and radiation fuzz, post-surgery, post-anesthesia, post-hospital, antibiotic, tapering steroids, etc, etc) that it is hard to discern what is effecting what. All we can do is take a whole-minded approach and meet each task as it comes. We persist in choosing consciousness and in "taking it easy".
Right now, Chester is working with his Physical Therapist, walking laps around the kitchen table. It is raining outside, and he is getting ready to take a walk outside under the awning. Tonight, we are celebrating another Thanksgiving with Marilyn, eating raw fish and honoring the New Moon, celebrating friendship, comfort, and love.
We continue on. May this new moon in Sagitarius bring optimism, profundity, and introspection to all of us. May our inner light and wisdom brighten this dark month. May we find wisdom and pleasure in our darkest places. May we know and embrace our animal nature, welcoming the season of rebirth and regeneration. May Love and Laughter flood into our days, bringing Hopefulness and Heartfulness to Us All.
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